-whateva-

Juz realizing

it's been so long time i din update ler

btw i reli duno what to write

what to say

what to release

ANYMORE

everything i write here

seems like being monitored by someone else

someone that is passing by

the feeling that not wanna be let othe know about myself too much

is weird

got a lot of things

i shud n shall share wif my dearest fren

but somehow

i feel like what i shared be4

is all about sadness but no happiness

i tried

i'm trying

to be more +ve thinking

plz...

dun let me feel like

being stressed up

being controlled

i'm kind of dislike stress

dislike being controlled

easily get emo

if u love me

plz respect to me

give me some space to take a breathe

i know this will kind of hurt u guys

BUT

i'm trying to protect myself

from getting HURT

HEAdlESS FliES

i'm goin to hav a burnout soon...

everything happened n need to be done at the same time...

event...

campaign...

midterm...

assignment...

seminar...

WHY???

i lost a lot of time to be gather with frenz...

ady long long time didnt meet up with them, didnt chat with them..

how i wish i can get a hug from my dearest frenz...

i wanted to stay stronger n tougher, get everything goin smoothly,

i'm juz wan to hav cooperation from all, juz wan all to complete their promise b4,

i'm trying my best to deal with everyone,

but end up scolding ppl n hurt them one by one... WHY??

anyone can tell me??

everyone also telling me wan to add oil,

rest more,

take care myself

i appreciate it n i wish to....

but cant...

i'm suffering...

i'm stressing...

nothing can be done 100% completely n successfully on time...

izit my own problem??

or the environment forced me to be like this?

i'm confusing... totally...

i've lost my direction, my way to the success and satisfaction...

juz like......

A HEADLESS FLIES

*凌晨四点钟*

哈咯大家

我回家乡几天了

可是不懂怎么

今天就是睡不着

凌晨四点钟

不怎么样

就是睡不下去

静静的夜晚

一个人的客厅

听着歌

写着部落

感觉还不错~

刚刚躺在床上时

心里想了很多事

（算是自我反省么？不晓得...）

我想的又能写在这里么？

可以...

不可以...

真的可以？

结果

还是不能...

实在没办法

或许

自己心里想些什么

就永远只有自己最清楚了

不过

还是想要向某些人道歉

我是真的逼不得已

T^T

关于马六甲A'famosa之旅

我知道突然改掉日期

是我不对

可是我总不能真的不去拍全家福

因为那真的是预先有被家人通知了的

在姐姐或哥哥的毕业典礼后拍全家福

其实是爸妈的心愿

犹记得我小学四或五年级时

一家人去过某某地方

那也是上一次全家人聚在一起拍照的时候

再说说之前

原本大家是打算在姐姐的毕业典礼拍照

可是那在沙捞越

我们负担不起飞机票

所以计划泡汤了

然而

这次哥哥的毕业典礼

就在怡保

靠靠近近的一个地方

是一个驾车一小时就到的地方

我不能不去

真的...

虽然说妈妈批准我去旅行

过后再用photoshop把我挤进去

可是我觉得那没意义

一直以来

跟爸妈的感情并没有很好

可是这次假期回来

妈妈为我煮了很多很多好吃的

什么也都替我做完

这份感动，是之前没有过的

不过

我承认这是我的错

对不起...

emo midnight, 2011

hello everyone

it's a late happy new year wishes

hope everyone can be stayed happy always

in a brand new year - 2011

by the way

dunno how long time i didnt post anything here ady

juz feel like a bit strange now

anyway

my PY Y1S3 life gonna end soon

it's study week now

we waiting for final exam

************************************

study week

it's midnight of sunday

i'm feeling emo emo

coz of moving house's stuff

(i'm an emo angel, anyone plz save me from the emo world~~)

even this

what can i do?

ANS: nothing...

Zzzzzz

yeah....

juz can blame myself to be so simple

didnt think deeply

too stupid

haiz

think of nonit to stay alone in the room ady

gt somebody to share things

somebody to chat ba gua

but now end up wif nothing

i'm juz moving to a different environment

n continnue my single life at home

LOL

so sweat

finally

i'm juz can wish that

wish that all these feelings

will be gone very soon

CHEERS myself~~

p/s: hope i can increase my performance in study =))