假期，我来咯~~

woohoo~~

又是学校假期了...

我又要做穷光蛋咯

呵呵 可怜我啦...

每次假期都是我没钱用的时候...

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这次大概放一个月

我也一样必须工作十天....

赚钱 嘻嘻

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刚考完试二十四小时都还没到

我就已经匆匆忙忙回江沙了

无奈~~

但没办法咯

在金宝要自己一个人

我不要啊~~~~

说回下午的考试...

老师真的有够过分的啦

每次都出一些难难的题目

重点是：

有读的都没出，

出来的都是没读到的

算了啦

唉~~

如果这次考试过2.0

我就该谢天谢地了

如果没过

那就得跟各位战友说掰掰了

以下附上一图

表达我考试时的心情

=(

战友们，请为我祈祷...

希望我不会failed psychotherapy

您的大恩大德

小女没齿难忘丫 =P

好咯好咯

我不想当长气鬼

有空我会再上来晃晃~~

祝大家-假期快乐... =)

梦~

昨晚

临睡前有读了dream analysis

它分成两种

latent content

manifest content

没想到今早起床

我还真的意想不到的做梦了

难得啊~~

更难得的是

我竟然还可以记得梦的内容

p/s：那是古装，大概80年代的吧 =）

可我不记得自己穿得怎样

里面一开始是一间小公司位于大楼顶楼

人物有老板+秘书(妻子)+书记(心机重的，而且爱上老板)

就有一天来了一场火灾

把由木板建造的小公司都烧完了

由于公司之前都是经手制作东西的

但重建后改去机械制作了

公司大改革后妻子怀孕了

也因为这样公司大有起色，慢慢越做越好

可是剧情怪怪的去到一天书记没来上班

大伙子收工要回家前却来了个莫名的男子

说要找人谈宗大生意

开了门后当要找回那名男子时他却不见了

就这样主要的门被锁了

大家回不了家

而管家就刚好有另一道门可以离开大楼的

去到那里老板发现一个东西

开了打火机想要仔细看看

却无缘无故起了大火

让妻子不小心流产了

就这样陆陆续续的

整个梦就很奇怪

而且梦境里面都很怪异

wuuu~~~

好恐怖哦...

算啦

再写下去我又会做恶梦了

还是别写好

想来想去

我真的不懂这dream是

manifest content

还是

latent content

>,<

摄影比赛

一个月没上来写东西了

感觉好长久哦~

话说这时候我应该在读书的

可是基于太无聊了

不想读书

所以就上来晃晃

好啦...

还是长话短说好了

前阵子参加了UTAR Photography Society举办的摄影比赛

据某人透露，

我参选的照片可以得奖的

只可惜，

像素不够 落选了~~

以下是参选的照片...

#########################

Capture (1): A father show his love to a baby daughter through hugging. Little child is always the king or queen in the bottom heart of parent.

***************************************************

Capture (2): Without grandmother, without parent and without us. Love between grandparent and grandchildren is the greatest in the world.

***************************************************

Capture (3): Travelling is one of the way to hold a family together and children is the priceless treasure for every parent and even grandparent.

##########################

呵呵...

就是以上三张照片

其中第三张是有机会获选的

只不过差少少

但没关系

有过经验就好了

说实在的

我蛮想有一架属于自己的照相机

拍拍自己喜欢的人事物+景象

做个记录 留作收藏

=)

什么时候呢？

很难说...

或许一个星期后

或许一个月后

也或许....

希望我早日买到属于自己的相机吧~~ ^^V

accident...

frenz

there r a lot of accident recently

for driver

hope u all can drive carefully

for rider

hope u all can ride well

LOL

bt for chloe red

d gal who died of accident

n this is her fb profile

u can c that most of her frenz r sad

juz bcoz of her

a fren

click to this link=> http://www.facebook.com/profile.php?id=1216948661

chloe, may u rest in peace

well...

when all ppl thinking n sadding about chloe

i think i'm the ONLY ONE that not to do so

coz i'm thinking about another frenz

is my dear frenz~~ fei yang...

he gone at (9/8/09)

ady one year

bt i'm still let him off actually

i'll still sad n moody

when thinking about him

it's no choice

coz he's my frenz

my dear n lovely frenz

even though so...

he'll still wont come back to our side

we juz can accept it

accept the reality

*For all Chloe's frenz...

Please DON'T b sad anymore

i know that feeling well actually

i understand it actually

but

plz b strong

chloe may like to c all u guys' smile

u know??

ALL D BEST there...

GOD WILL BLESS U ALL N CHLOE TOO

cheer~~ =)

confusing...

emo emo

dunno what to do

n dunno what shud i do

really wish that i can b drunk to forgt everything

unfortunately that i duno drink beer

moodless to go anywhere

dun wan to stay home alone

i'm a socialize gal

plz dun left me alone all d time

T^T

everyone...

there??

can save me from d feelings?

feiyang,

it's best if u r still around me

i'm totally no idea wif what happening now

feeling wan to cry

feeling wan to scream

but dunno who to find

feiyang,

i'm really suffering wif all these feelings

T^T

~Lunch Gathering after finaL~

Restaurant East Ocean

= venue for our lunch =

haha...

after final statistic paper

straight away we went there for lunch

Our dishes~~

all not bad...

but still ok only~

thn photo taking sessions start~~

*p/s: seems like taking photo at genting,

but it's juz outside the restaurant...

means kampar eastlake xD

New Semester~~

well...

it's our new sem...

i'm ady yr 1 sem 2 PY student ^^V

totally feel great about this

last sem...

i passed php module 1

CWW workshop

midterm

assignment discussion

presentation

final exam

in study sem

n

lunch gathering

php team building camp

genting trip

when holiday..

wow~ great...

i juz viewed all those photo taken in sem 1

(actually juz photo tagged by othes)

LOL

suddenly felt that i hav a lot of memory

which can be inserted into my blog

but felt sry that i cant make it

coz too busy

anyway

i'm still feeling fresh

n sure hepi

wif all

great memory n frenz =)

muackkss~~

lOVE u all ya~~

hehe...

new sem new hope n new love

wakakaka~~

the night b4 exam

yeap~~

it's d nite b4 we get into d exam hall

some of d ppl ady prepare well

but some of them juz half tank of water only

no matter how

d exam still hav to go on

i dunno whether what i read is useful

i will try my best

to let myself pass all d subject

get a higher gpa

few days alone in d hse

d feeling

really not nice

though u can do everything

open d song loudly

but thn...

really empty

201005 final exam

only me stay at kampar

fighting alone

coz dear ady not here

back to ipoh jor

his exam end ady last tuesday T^T

surprised that

dear came kampar to visit me juz nw

but....

time is short

i wan more time to let dear staying here =(

but cant

cry again~~

within a week

cried for lots of time

stress that facing exam n studying alone here

but no choice

dear~

sry that i cried a lot recently

but thn i really cant control d tears

it drops automatically

since i know u dislike i cry

but sry...

py year 1 sem 1

i met a lot of frenz

no wonder u r

tall or short

fat or thin

ugly or pretty

luv u all~

even u r frm uec/stpm/foundation

it's glad to meet u all here

study psychology tgt

hope that we can hav fun tgt

laugh n cry tgt

pass d exam one by one

frenz, add oil for final ya~~

meaningful saturday...

hihi, long time din update ady..
it's d time for me to update my blog..

it was a meaningful saturday
i met my freinds, boyfriend n family as well in ipoh
hehe... touching~~ >.<

i went ipoh in d afternooon
met faizai n raydon at 1st..
we went to big tree had lunch
d laksa there-not nice one
kk one is better, i think ^^

those children who at new hope children home~
they still rmb me as well.
really glad to know it
thx for everything there
n thx for let me hav d chance to communicate wif u all..

evening~
we went to yikfoong to meet my bf
we walk around there in order to wait him
n we saw a mp5, it costs RM200..
izit cheap or expensive?? wondering.. @_@

1st garden station 1 cafe~
d service there really sucks
i totally dun like their customer service
no wifi there but we can search it??
haiz.. dunno how to say...

bon odori 2010~~
it's located at meru valley-a beautiful place
but the japanese festival is disappointed me..
when we reached there, coupon r sold out ><
luckily i gt meet wif jingshan, youqi n peijuan
n a lot frenz who study at utar as well

jusco turn~
we found parking for about half an hour time
really a lot ppl at there on saturday
we bought some junk food..
hehe... it's my favorite =)

McD~
i tried fillet burger.. ^^
bf ate mc'chicken
i ady paid total RM30 to McD within few day. >_<
but it's worth, help me to release stress also

tgv cinema~
we watched the sorcerer apprentice
another nice movie
it's talk about magic
dave, as d prime merlinian to save d world
cool man~~ ^^V

after that i met my mummy, sis n dad
mummy brought a lot of foods n mango for me
sis asked me dun bek home, dun rob d bedroom wif her
lolx... childish gal.. haiz
dad miss me a lot, coz he aim on me few times
but he din voice out..
we all r shy shy family.. xD

lastly~
drive thru McD.. xD
i totally fall in luv wif it
i'm lovin it~~
yummy yummy sundae cone~~

thats all for my saturday..
full of plan~~
i love it~~♥

哭...

一直以来...

坚强的我都不会为了考试成绩的事而感到担心

可我刚刚，却真的哭了

哭出了心中所有的烦恼，紧张，担心和悲愤

这，真的第一次为了成绩而哭.. T_T

很多人一定都觉得我很多余...

每次都会为了一些小事而哭，很轻易的就掉眼泪

可你们不懂..

眼泪是女生最珍贵的东西...

而最珍贵的东西难道就不能流给自己心中最珍惜的朋友吗？

哪怕那只是刚认识没多久的朋友

只要那是真心对待的朋友，那就可以了.. >.<

其实...

我刚刚哭，是因为担心自己考试的平均学分考得不好

一旦考不好，我就必须停止我的读书生涯了

我真的可以就这样潇洒的休学吗？

凭着只有 SPM 的学历，工作谁会要请呢？

如果我离开了金宝，我亲爱的朋友们会怎么样呢？

还有，如果见不到他，我们会变成怎样？

好多好多的疑问,我都没办法知道答案... @.@

我家..真的不是很有钱

之前之前，

姐姐升上大学，哥哥升上 politeknik 就读

现在，

加上我在 UTAR，家庭的收入根本就不足够

而妈妈就因为我出去社会工作了,每个月薪水刚好足够付我在金宝的生活费

当时妈妈跟我说...

"丽啊，妈只给你一年的时间哦...

如果成绩理想的话，妈就允许你继续升学，修你喜欢的心理学...

但如果你没办法做到，那你就只好休学，出社会工作，懂吗？"

当时的我以为读大学而已嘛，并没有很难，反正我一定读得下去 ^^V

可现在，我错了...

彻底的做错了...

或许一开始我就不应该出现在金宝的

这样的我，不只让自己承受着种种压力

也让妈妈辛苦着... =(

年三十那天，家里发生了状况

每次被妈妈藏起来的金属竟然找不到

直到今天，还是找没有

妈咪和我说...

原本她是有打算如果我成绩还不错的话就答应让我继续升学

而升上 degree 的那六千多

她打算当掉家里一些金属

金属换来学费？？

想想... 自己不该这么自私

可是...... =(

心情真的真的很矛盾...

我是真的真的不懂该怎么样...

是应该继续升学？还是半途而废-休学？ ~.~

唉...

成绩快出来了...

现在的我应该就只能希望成绩还理想吧？

其他的.......

还是解决不了.....

哭，

只能让自己心里舒服一些，

发泄心中一直压抑着的情感...

而哭过，就好了...

Valentine's 2nd diary..

22-01-2010

I’m going to renew my P license today..

Because of the license renewal, I slightly have an accident with a police car.

Luckily I’m safe… but still got a bit scare…

It’s because I already witnessed two accidents which included a car and a motor.

And the collision cause the motorcycle rider injured and lay on the road, waited for the ambulances to come without any movement between the times.

I really will start to scare that one day I will like the motor rider…

Really, really scared…

After I send my license to driving school, I’m gone back home by motorcycle without license…

And once again, fortunately I can reach home without anything.

All of my friends are started to worry about me when saw my post on facebook.

And surely for my dear, he called me straight away to ask me what had happened.

3 minutes call…

After the call I fall asleep on my bed as I’m in the scary…

6.30pm, wern woke me up to have dinner outside.

We took our dinner at the shop last time we had dinner last time with joey, Jackie hee, Andrew them.

I didn’t tell him at all about I’m going out with wern to have dinner.

11.30pm, wern, yio, shiyu, chenyi and me went out to have supper.

Then I suggested them to go Maple Sky as there got midnight promotion.

It was the third time I went there.

The 1^st time I went there was dear’s birthday.

I’m sent the birthday present-wallet to him at the last few minutes before his birthday end.

He was surprised that time and don’t know what to chat with me. Hehe… fall in love with his reaction that day.

The 2^nd time, I went there with dear also.

He was going out with his friends to have dinner.

I’m just accompanied him to have his dinner.

The 3^rd time which mean today, I went there with housemates to have supper there.

We ate fried sotong ball, fish ball, hotdog, nuggets and drinking iced honey there.

We also played UNO over there.

Again, I didn’t tell him that I was going out with housemates to have supper outside.

And I also didn’t bring my Nokia 6288 out as it was recharging battery, so that dear can’t find me if dear didn’t send message to another phone.

1.30am, I received dear’s message, asking me that whether I’m studying or sleeping.

Then I told dear that I’m just back from outside.

Dear asked me that why I didn’t tell him that I was going out, then he no need to worry about me.

I felt shocked. Is it really my fault or dear still didn’t understand me?

Wondering… what should I do actually for that time?

I didn’t tell him is because I don’t want to rely on him too much.

I’m scared that I can’t pass my semester break as three weeks can’t see dear.

I didn’t tell dear is because I’m trying to be independent and don’t rely too much on dear.

And of course I want trying to live my life without him for few hours.

Besides this, another reason is that wern didn’t ask me to call dear out together to have dinner and supper, then definitely I won’t sms dear…

I’m guessing dear is angry with me now, but he said nope.

Suddenly, I really feel that don’t know how to face dear.

I really will feel scare when he didn’t reply me, but after that don’t know why I will also angry with dear.

Then I just tell dear that I want to sleep already.

I’m really bad.

Bad girl, bad daughter, bad girlfriend too. >.<

Valentine's diary..

15-01-2010

Dear said he so missed me today…

Dunno y..

Mayb juz bcoz I’m not bside him…

He still said tat he cant do any revision..

Coz full of his mind is me…

Suddenly I dunno how to reply him…

Can I reject for his missing??

I think cant..

Coz I wan him to think about me..

Bt if he thinking about me continuously, can he concentrate on his study??

I think cant….

Dunno y…

N really, dunno how…

I dun wan stay bek for the sem 4…

N for him too..

I wish we can get into degree together…

Bt can it be real??

2010前...

新一年了..

我们先来回味下2010前几天发生什么事吧...

首先是我的mass communication presentation...

~press conference~

唯一遗憾是来不及和我的圣诞公公-stifler合照...

wateva，谢谢stifler的帮忙...^^

也谢谢亮宇哥哥替我按slide show... =)

*我们的大合照*

*大合照后也不忘了和两位“帅帅”的老师合照* LOLz..

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接着，2009年12月25日..

庆祝圣诞节咯...

我和housemate嘉雯又去了怡保一趟...

我们约了几个住在怡保的朋友一起出来走走..

去了ipoh parade，第一次在那感受到人山人海...

果然是有圣诞节的feel~~

以下是圣诞树的照照哦...

*这红红白白的是本小姐最喜欢的哦*

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2009年12月29日，堂姐终于结婚了...

谈恋爱同居多年的她，奉子成婚了...

过年后我又要当阿姨了... xD

*堂姐和我*

*我和姐姐跟堂姐堂姐夫的合照*

#p/s: 姐姐弄卷头发后变很成熟了，我烫直头发后变很年轻了... 不再让别人误会我是姐姐...@_@

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2009年12月30日...

management studies presentation...

we represent Swatch company..

*miss khor*

*we prefer teamwork xD*

*我和kary dear*

*我和亮宇哥 ^^V*

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2009年12月31日...

Anson哥哥知道我会时常觉得寂寞，特地邀我一起去吃铁板火锅...

谢谢哥哥...

知道你第一次没和老婆一起庆祝倒数有点失落...

但还有我这妹妹在哦...^^

*我和anson gor gor*

*大食战以后...*

*我们的合照*

就这样...2009年结束咯...

希望大家在新的一年可以更坚强...

一起加油哦...

GAMBATEH~~